My Moon Has Risen!

I was feeling really low and Irritated..for various reasons. Over life, I have learnt to try and not get myself in there in first place and I am getting pretty good at it but today's war was nowhere going into my victory-over-human-errs book. 

Anyways, so usually when I am feeling like this(or any kind of extremity of emotions - positive or negative or the isthmus of sorts, where I do not have the slightest inclination towards whether I want to feel what I am feeling or not and it feels too un-categorized and even more irritating)..

When this happens, I first try to resort to the Master Shifu within me, possibly cool it off / curb it off on my own, sometimes by deep breaths - trying to think about what I call stabilizers of my life (people, phases, situations -  specifics, vague, terrestrial and cosmic  - the love, the feeling that they infuse etc) and  that works atleast putting me in a state where I can now logically "plan" to calm off even deeper; Then comes, the very common and highly underrated remedy - these days known as -  spotify-ing, but for me what is mostly an "offline" playlist and songs that I have since I had my first mobile(and yes, they are still saved by some random download name and contains the substring mp3 as well)..

and then the last refuge, the one which had never let me down, my "brahmaastra" the scribblings..which started with those small pocketsized notepads, went on to mature into rather exhaustive TMI-ied diaries, and are currently morphed as notes - heaping on to the pile of currently 534 random emo-journals..

And in very rare cases, when it gets too much, I reach out to one of the few who-tolerate-me-but-still-love-me kind of people that I have in my life - and just tell them I am feeling low(reasons are not ever asked and my choice of sharing is given full veto, everytime!).

But today, I was feeling so low that I did not wish to drag anyone into this abyss of despair, not even let anyone feel the air of it..specially not my not-so-temporary-at-all human scaffoldings..

But then the phone chimed - two tweeting sounds - indicating someone has messaged..

It was one of my guardian angels..He just pinged something factual regarding our upcoming and much awaited meeting and then we were chatting casually, I was keeping my distance and sanity in check, so as to not sound irritated or overwhelmed in any way and then the he suddenly said a few kind lovefilled words of compliments out of nowhere, as if he knew I needed some reassurance of what or who I am, desperately needed positive vibes!! 

And in that very moment, I literally felt the dementors leaving my grounds and vicinity!! This has happened in the past with a few of my telepathy-ish gang..like they message something very apt or very random but still apt..right when I need it the most! 

My own sixth sensed patronuses!! 

And eveytime this happens, my violins are back playing some happy tune, my grateful-ness quotient shoots up, the grass looks greener than ever, not as compared to others, but to my own, a few moments ago..and my heart - oh my heart gets full..beaming in blood red - and rejuvenates what people say - is my usual aura!! 

My moon has risen, its back!!