“Dusting down the lane of firsts, I came across what was and will always be, only ours..That kiss we kissed!!
I can still hear my own heartbeat..
cancelling the noise from the other room..of the commentary from the cricket match in the TV!!
And yours too...climbing through the chaos created by chitter chatter of our friends, who had gathered to watch the match together at a friend’s place..
I dont remember how we both managed to escape from our gang un noticed into the adjacent room..
cliched as it may sound bt it almost felt like universe conspired that escape for our special moment!
I have turned out to be a forgetful person these days, but this moment is etched into my memory as if it happened just the other day!
I must admit, it was the most unexpected, most inviting moments I have had till then..
And I could see you were not sure at first either..You took time
Held my hand gently, brushed your lips around fingers, waited for my consenting blushful smile, climaxing perfectly by interlocked hold!
I gulped, breathed, blinked, goose-bumped, almost shivered of a feeling I have never felt before..or after..ever!!
It was just that fraction of second - when I could feel you to your very core - your warmth, your breath, your craving, your surrender, your anxiety, your passion, your desire, your sincerity, everything that you felt for me in its most naked, pure form..and strangely, pleasantly, could not feel myself at all..Almost like an anti-gravity, floating experience!
We kissed..technically you alone did - you told me and made fun of it months later that I froze at that moment, and for a few more kisses after that! Ok ok, I was a terrible kisser, I agree..
But you spoiled me I guess..because that defined the perfect kiss for me forever and..and the first of course!!
Years have passed since then and many kisses too..but I am still stuck Somewhere in between those jitters and that freeze, when your lips touched mine.. I am basically living off it - during rains, through dark, amidst blues, in pain..and luckily, that has been more than enough till now..
That first kiss became my tonic for getting through life thereafter!!”
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(Taken from the letterhead-pile of)
Shirin
